I just… I don't get it. Sous-chef at *Ambrosia* — I’ve been grinding for this for YEARS, every single shift, every cut, every minute on the line while my kid is home with a sitter. Tonight was my trial service, the one where I prove I can run the pass, lead the team. And what did I do? I played *Cyberpunk* for ten straight hours, just absolutely lost in it, until 2 AM. I have a 6 AM start. My wife’s going to ask how it went and I’m just going to stare blankly because I don’t even understand why I sabotaged myself like this. It’s like a maladaptive coping mechanism, but for WHAT? I wanted this. I NEED this. I don't know who this person is, staying up all night, just... ignoring everything.