I don’t even know why I’m posting this, it’s probably nothing, you know? Like, it’s not a HUGE deal. Just… I had my one-on-one with Sarah, my supervisor, today, and she was doing that thing, you know, when she kinda leans back and gets all like, "How are you *really* doing?" And she specifically asked if I needed to take a mental health day, which honestly, I appreciate, she’s actually pretty good at the whole supervision thing. It’s just… I told her no. And I MEANT it. But then I got home, and I started thinking about it, and now I’m wondering if I’m just completely out of touch with my own emotional state. Like, am I broken or something? Because here’s the thing, lately, when clients are telling me… you know, the really hard stuff? The kind of trauma that makes your stomach clench just hearing about it? I just… I don’t feel anything. Like, literally nothing. It’s not that I’m not listening, I can re-state everything they said, I can formulate a plan, I can give them resources, all the practical stuff. My diagnostic impressions are still spot-on, my progress notes are flawless. But internally? It’s just this… flatline. Like, complete affective blunting. I don’t feel sad, I don’t feel angry, I don’t even feel a flicker of empathy, like, genuinely. It’s just this weird, blank space. And I used to cry, you know? I used to take that home with me and feel totally overwhelmed. Now it’s just… gone. And I told Sarah I was fine, because I *am* fine, like, I’m still doing the job, I’m effective, my metrics are good. But part of me is wondering if that’s actually a problem. Like, is it normal to just… shut off like that? Or is this, like, depersonalization? Or maybe even a dissociative response? I don't know. I’m just so tired of being tired, you know? And I just got that promotion, and I’m up for lead social worker next year, so I can’t exactly be like, "Hey, I think I’m experiencing emotional detachment!" because then it looks like I can’t handle the caseload. But also… am I just pretending I’m fine when I’m clearly… not? This is stupid. I probably just need more sleep. Or maybe less coffee. I don't know.