i gotta get this off my chest and idk if its just me being a complete ass or what but lately im just mad all the time for no reason. like my wife will ask if i want chicken or pasta for dinner and i just snap at her like why does it even matter just pick something. then my son called last night hes 28 lives across town and i just started in on him about his job and how he needs to get serious about a promotion or whatever and he just got quiet and said okay dad i gotta go and hung up. i felt like crap after but in the moment it just felt RIGHT to be angry. like this bubbling up thing inside me i cant control. i always figured id be that cool grandpa type you know cracking jokes and playing with the grandkids but lately even my grandkids make me wanna hide in the garage. they come over and they're loud and messy and i just wanna yell at them to sit still and be quiet. my wife looks at me like im crazy and im starting to wonder if shes right. its not like anything bad happened at work today either just another monday. but i came home and saw the mail piled up on the counter and felt this HUGE wave of anger like why cant anyone just put the mail away. its always something small. i see other guys my age at work and they seem fine. laugh at the stupid office jokes talk about their golf game. im just over here gritting my teeth counting down till i can leave. im 55 been doing construction my whole life. my back hurts my knees hurt. my parents are getting old and they need help all the time. my wife wants to travel but all i wanna do is sit on the couch and watch tv. is this just what happens when you get old. you just turn into a grumpy old man. am i just turning into my dad. i really hope not. i just dont know what to do about it. i just dont.