I'm sitting here on the edge of the bed and I can't stop shaking. It's almost 2am and the house is so quiet it's like... it's like it's screaming at me, you know? I just need to say this somewhere where nobody knows my face because if my boss or my kids ever found out I don't even know what would happen. I've worked so hard for this life. The title, the corner office, the whole thing. But it feels like a house of cards and I'm the one blowing on it. Today was just... it was a lot. I had this huge client strategy meeting at 2pm with these tech guys who think they're basically gods.