I know this is gonna sound super messed up and like, probably a lot of people do this? but it feels really bad to type it out. like I’m a legit hypcrite and it’s kinda eating at me. I spend literally twelve hours a day, sometimes more if there’s a big case, working my butt off for these huge companies. Like, HUGE companies, the kind that have their name on like, buildings downtown, you know? And my job is to basically make sure they don’t get screwed over in court. It’s always about money, always. Like, some small business is trying to sue them for whatever, or a bunch of people got sick from their product, and I’m the one finding all the loopholes and figuring out how to make it all go away for my clients. And I’m GOOD at it. Like, really really good. My boss says I’m a natural, which sounds cool but also makes me wanna throw up a little bit. The thing is, deep down, like when I’m just walking home late at night and the city is kinda quiet, I actually think the whole system is rigged. Like, completely rigged for the rich people. The people who can afford lawyers like me. It’s not about what’s fair, it’s about who has the most money to pay for the best defense. And I actually BELIEVE that. Like, I totally believe that the legal system is designed to protect the wealthy and stomp all over anyone else who tries to get in their way. And then I wake up, put on my stupid suit, and go spend another day doing exactly that. Helping the wealthy. Defending the big guys. It’s sooooo messed up. I know it’s my job, and it pays really well, which is important living here because rent is insane, but still. Sometimes I’m sitting across from some dude, some regular guy who’s just trying to get what he thinks he’s owed, and I’m just thinking about how I’m gonna shred his case to pieces, literally, because that’s what I’m paid to do, and I just feel this like… wave of disgust. Not at him, but at myself. For being part of it. For being so good at it. It’s like I’m laughing at the entire idea of justice with one part of my brain while the other part is actively making sure justice doesn’t happen for anyone who isn’t rich. It’s a pretty sick joke. And I’m the punchline. This is stupid but I just needed to say it out loud even if it's just to strangers on the internet.