Home/Grief & Loss/Relief at loss/ThoughtIs it normal to want to check your watch while your husband of forty years is being lowered into a hole in the mud?relief at lossShare this thoughtCopy linkShare on XDownload imageDoes this resonate with you?Share Your OwnBrowse MoreOthers have felt this tooI stood there at the graveside, the rain just soaking through my good coat, watching everyone else cry and genuinely feel it, and I just… felt nothing. …emotional numbnessYou know that feeling when the casket finally goes into the ground, and instead of tears, you just... …hidden caregiver reliefYou know that feeling when you've done what’s expected—attended the solemn gathering for a fellow retiree, shared polite condolences—and then you come home and just…sit? …mortality anxietyLike there was always this invisible wall, or maybe I built it. …emotional numbnessRelated ThemesAnticipatory griefUnresolved grief