I watched my husband sign for that new car and it was like a cold wind just blew right through me and I could feel all the years of scrimping and saving just blowing away with it and I thought about all the extra shifts and the cheap groceries and how my parents always worried about the bills and how I never wanted to feel that way but he just smiled and he looked so happy and it was like he saw something completely different and I just stood there and the keys felt heavy in my hand and I wondered if this was what it felt like when things started to crack and you knew it but you couldn't say anything because then everything would just...