Home/Grief & Loss/Relief at loss/ThoughtI watched the monitor reach a flat state of equilibrium and felt nothing but a profound sense of logistical accomplishment.relief at lossemotional numbnessShare this thoughtCopy linkShare on XDownload imageDoes this resonate with you?Share Your OwnBrowse MoreOthers have felt this tooI just stood there, smiling, nodding, watching my boss accept accolades for *my* cantilevered solution, and the most DISCONCERTING thing? …anger suppressionAfter Alex's comment at dinner, about my "contribution" being less tangible than hers, I just kept washing the plates. …anger suppressionThis is stupid but— standing on the balcony, looking at the city lights after closing that last deal, the net worth… it just felt like a terminal cessation of desire, a strange anhedonia I wasn't… …purpose searchingI keep thinking maybe I’m experiencing some kind of anhedonia. …emotional numbnessRelated ThemesAnticipatory griefUnresolved grief