Home/Grief & Loss/Relief at loss/ThoughtI was awake at 03:14 again, staring at the popcorn ceiling and counting the little jagged shadows.relief at lossShare this thoughtCopy linkShare on XDownload imageDoes this resonate with you?Share Your OwnBrowse MoreOthers have felt this tooStaring at the ceiling fan again. …procrastination shameanother night of staring at the popcorn ceiling while the fan wobbles— why i screamed at the masonry guys today: 1.anger suppressionWatching the sun come up again. …past self embarrassmentI am sitting in the kitchen at 2:14 AM, the blue light of this phone screen making my liver spots look like a topographical map of some country I shouldn't have been in forty years ago.aging fearsRelated ThemesAnticipatory griefUnresolved grief