Home/Self & Identity/Past self embarrassment/ThoughtWatching the sun come up again. 4:14 AM. The light hits the dust on my drafting table just like it did in seventy-two—seventy-four? That year.past self embarrassmentShare this thoughtCopy linkShare on XDownload imageDoes this resonate with you?Share Your OwnBrowse MoreOthers have felt this tooStaring at the ceiling fan again. …procrastination shameI sat there at 6:30 and watched the light hit that silver paint. …jealousy hidingI was awake at 03:14 again, staring at the popcorn ceiling and counting the little jagged shadows.relief at lossI am sitting in the kitchen at 2:14 AM, the blue light of this phone screen making my liver spots look like a topographical map of some country I shouldn't have been in forty years ago.aging fearsRelated Themes"Am I Normal?" Aging AnxietyAge-inappropriate interestsBody image strugglesIdentity confusionPeople pleasing