I don't know if this even counts as like, a real problem. Like, probably not, but it feels so big in my head. I do this thing where I take pictures of myself, for like, the internet. It's supposed to be about, like, being healthy and stuff, because that's what I do. I teach people how to like, work out. And everyone always says how much they look up to me because I’m supposed to be like, perfect or whatever. And it’s just… it’s a lot. The other day, I was taking a pic of my stomach. Like, just that part. And there was this, like, tiny little fold of skin, you know? Like, when you bend a certain way? It was so small, most people probably wouldn’t even see it. But I saw it. And I spent like, HOURS trying to make it disappear. Like, zooming in and using all the apps, trying to smooth it out. I kept thinking, what if someone sees it? What if they see that I’m not actually perfect? What if they realize I’m just like, everyone else? And then they won't want to follow me anymore or come to my classes. It sounds so dumb when I type it out, but it felt like the END of everything. Like my whole career would be over because of this ONE little thing. I just feel so stupid and ashamed. Like, I’m supposed to be strong and confident. And here I am, freaking out over a literal fold of skin. It feels like I’m faking everything. And I can’t tell anyone in real life because they’d just say I’m being dramatic, or that I should just stop doing it. But it’s not that easy. This is like, my whole deal now. And what if they’re right? What if I AM being dramatic? I just feel so gross about it. I don’t know.

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