omg you guys im so stupid like seriously 🤦‍♀️ just spent like three hours on ONE pic. of my stomach. ONE. like for a stupid insta post. and its not even like a before and after or anything its just a regular pic. of me in my workout gear. but like i have this super tiny roll right above my hip bone when i sit a certain way and i SWEAR it looks like a whole extra person sometimes. i know i know its probably just my brain doing stupid stuff bc im 50 and my body isnt like it was when i was 20 and my parents are getting really old now and my kids are like basically gone and im back in school and everything is just… weird. but this little fold of skin, man. i zoomed in zoomed out brightened darkened blurred sharpened, ugh. my poor phone storage is prob screaming at me. and its not even like im a supermodel or anything but im a fitness instructor right? so like i gotta look the part. and my online followers they expect a certain… vibe. i just know someone out there is gonna zoom in and be like "HA! look at her shes not even perfect!" and then im gonna lose followers and then my side hustle is gonna go to crap and then i cant pay for my tuition and then im stuck working retail or something and my degree is for nothing and my kids will think im a total loser bc i cant even hack it at fitness which is literally my job. my whole life is just one big domino effect waiting to fall and its all because of a tiny skin roll. i finally posted it. i think i got rid of it mostly. or maybe i just made it look like a weird shadow. idk. now im just staring at my phone waiting for the comments. or the lack of comments. which is probably worse. im such a weirdo. who spends three hours on their belly? my kids would probably laugh at me if they knew. lol. maybe i need a new hobby. something that doesnt involve my midsection. like knitting. or competitive napping. yeah. competitive napping sounds good.