I dunno who sees this but I gotta say it. I pretend to be so chill, like, always praying always helping out at church. everyone thinks I'm gonna be a leader one day. but it's all BS. I sneak off to read stuff online, listen to music my parents would FLIP OUT over, like, philosophy and weird art that makes me feel somethin. and I'm supposed to be like, a good example? it feels so fake. I just wanna... be myself, but if anyone found out, my whole life would just... shatter. and all the gigs I do, all the money I save up, it's just to get out, but then what? I’d be alone. it's so heavy.