I feel like a total loser, okay? my kid, my youngest, just went off to college and I thought I'd be like, FREE. but it’s just… empty. all these years it was 'mom, mom, mom' and now it's nothing. i pick up shifts doing whatever – dog walking, quick cleanups – but it’s not real work, you know? and i'm supposed to be happy for them, i guess. but I kinda just want my old life back. it sounds SO bad to say that out loud. like, who even AM i anymore. it's just me and this quiet house and too much time to think about how i messed up everything. i don’t even know what to do next. it’s like my whole reason for being just… stopped. and that makes me feel really, really BAD.