Home/Sexuality & Intimacy/Intimacy avoidance/ThoughtI'm sitting in the dark and the only light is the blue glow from my cracked phone screen and it makes my hands look like ghosts. It’s 2:14 am.intimacy avoidanceShare this thoughtCopy linkShare on XDownload imageDoes this resonate with you?Share Your OwnBrowse MoreOthers have felt this tooI am sitting in the kitchen at 2:14 AM, the blue light of this phone screen making my liver spots look like a topographical map of some country I shouldn't have been in forty years ago.aging fearsI'm sitting here and the light from my phone is a cold blue bruise against the kitchen wall and it feels like the same fluorescent hum my dad used to bring home in his clothes after twelve hours at… …procrastination shameYou know that feeling when you're sitting in a glass-walled office at 11 PM and the only light is coming from a monitor that’s way too bright? …burnout denial2:14 AM and the phone screen is a neon scalpel cutting through the dark. …procrastination shameRelated ThemesOrientation questioningSexual shame