Intimacy avoidance: You're Not the Only One

We'd do video calls and stuff but I just couldn't handle, like, him actually being HERE. …

i gotta get this out cuz it’s eating me alive and i cant tell anyone in real life not my bestie not even my little brother like this is TOO MUCH so like it started a few years ago when i met jake at… …

i know this is gonna sound BAD but i only date guys who are like COMPLETELY unavailable and it's not even like an accident you know like i actually SEEK them out. …

And everyone was all like, "Oh no, long distance, that’s so hard, you guys are so strong! …

you know that feeling when your gut twists up real bad, like when you drop your phone and it hits the concrete but you haven't looked yet to see if the screen's cracked? …

“We got approved for that new cloud migration project. …

i always make fun of myself but this time it’s really bad and i feel so gross about it cause my partner will be like "hey can we talk about… you know… moving in together" or "how are you feeling… …

ok so i'm supposed to be studying for this midterm but my mind is just ... …

So I'm a traveling salesman, right? …

It makes my skin crawl a little bit and I just wanna run away and hide. …

I don't know if this counts as a confession but I kinda… avoid my girlfriend? …

He wants to dig DEEP and I just… can't. …

Archivist stuff, filing old papers, it’s quiet, you know? …

I see all these young people on my phone, ignoring texts when things get REAL, and I wonder... …

i dont know if this counts as like a real problem but i feel like im broken or something maybe not broken just kinda… disconnected?

like a total piece of shit, honestly. …

i used to resent my husband for all those overnight trips you know the ones he volunteered for every damn time he was practically a ghost sometimes just a voice on the phone but now looking back i… …

Says it’s his snoring. …

" And then I made another stupid joke, like, "My feelings are mostly a complex algorithm of 'hungry' and 'need coffee' and 'did I remember to save that design file'. …

And my brain just… shuts down. …