I know this is gonna sound super lame but I really messed up. Like, BIG messed up. It’s not like I stole anything or hurt someone, not physically anyway, but it feels just as bad. Or worse, 'cause it’s all in my head and I can’t tell anyone. Not even my folks, they’d be so disappointed. My dad was a Marine, you know? Always about doing things by the book, no shortcuts, honor and all that. And here I am, doing the exact opposite. Kinda funny in a messed up way, I guess. Laughing at myself right now, actually. It’s better than crying. So, I’m supposed to be like, promoting this drug, right? For like, very specific reasons. And it’s this new thing, for like, really bad headaches. Migraines. But then I saw this doctor, he was like, “Hey, this stuff actually helps my patients with their super bad anxiety.” And I was like, wait, what? That’s not what it’s for. My company has these super strict rules, like, you can’t even HINT at anything that’s not approved. They call it “off-label” and it’s a HUGE no-no. Like, you could lose your job, get sued, all sorts of crazy stuff. But then I saw how much it helped these people. Like, genuinely helped them live better. These folks were miserable, couldn’t leave their houses sometimes, and this drug, even though it’s not for that, made a difference. And I kept thinking about it. And then I did it. I started subtly hinting, just to a few doctors I kinda trusted. Nothing overt, just like, "Hey, some people say this has a calming effect, just an observation!" Or like, "Interesting how some people are reporting less stress overall with this, totally unrelated to their headaches of course!" It sounds so stupid now that I’m typing it. But I saw the relief in those patients’ eyes. And I felt… good. Like I was actually helping, not just selling. But now I can’t sleep. Every night I think about getting caught, about disappointing my dad, about being a fraud. It’s like a knot in my stomach that just gets tighter. And I keep doing it. I know it’s wrong, I know it’s breaking all the rules, but I can’t stop. It’s just… it’s a lot.