i know this sounds totally backwards and kinda stupid but im scared to finish my book its been like five years of working on it after everyone is asleep usually between eleven pm and one thirty am i make tea in the blue mug and just write for an hour or two its my secret thing you know and i keep thinking what if it actually gets big what if its a bestseller then suddenly id be like famous and have to go on tours and talk to people all the time and leave my house and everything and honestly that sounds EXHAUSTING like im so used to just being here with the kids and the dogs and my quiet life it almost feels like a betrayal to even want it to succeed sometimes like what kind of a mom wants to leave her family for some stupid book right its just a weird thing to think i guess...