I know this is gonna sound stupid, like it’s not even a big deal, but it kinda… I don’t know. It kinda messed me up a little. Like, it keeps playing in my head, you know? And I just need to get it out because I haven't told anyone and it's been weeks. It happened at that new coffee shop, the one with the huge windows and all the plants? I was there, trying to get some homework done, you know, because my roommate is ALWAYS on calls for her internship and it’s impossible to focus. So I found this little spot, kinda tucked away, and I was just trying to write this essay for my psych class. It was pretty busy, like, mostly other college kids, some people working on laptops, that kind of vibe. So this guy walks in, and he was… older. Like, REALLY old. Like, definitely over 60, probably closer to 70. He had on this plaid shirt and khaki pants, and he kinda shuffled in, you know? Like he was a little unsure where to go. He ordered his coffee – a plain black coffee, I remember – and then he was just kinda looking around. All the tables were taken, except for this one big one in the middle, and there were already like, three or four people there. They looked like they were together, chatting, laughing, kinda loud. And then he just… walked over. To their table. I could hear him kinda clear his throat, like, "Excuse me, is this seat taken?" And there was this awkward pause, you know? Like, everyone just kinda stopped talking. One of the girls, she had this big messy bun, kinda looked up, and she was like, "Uh, no, but we're kinda working on something here." She said it really fast, almost like she was trying to brush him off, but he didn't seem to get it. He just kinda smiled, like, this really gentle, kinda hopeful smile. He was like, "Oh, that's alright, I can just sit quietly. It's just so hard to find a spot in here these days, isn't it?" And he gestured to the empty chair, like he was gonna pull it out. And that’s when it happened. The girl with the messy bun, she looked at the guy next to her, and he just… pushed his chair back a little. And then the person across from him did the same. Like, just a tiny bit, but enough. Enough so there was this obvious gap. Like they were creating space around themselves, away from him. It was so subtle, but it was SO LOUD at the same time. The way they all just kinda shifted, like one coordinated move. Like they were trying to make themselves smaller, or make their circle tighter, so there was no room for him. He must have seen it, because his smile just kinda… faded. And he said, "Oh. Right. Well, I'll just… find somewhere else then." And he just kinda turned around and shuffled back towards the counter, holding his coffee. He ended up just standing by the wall, kinda sipping his coffee and looking out the window, all by himself. And those people at the table just went back to laughing and talking, like nothing even happened. Like he was invisible. I felt this pang, like, a REALLY sharp one. I kept thinking, what if that was my grandpa? You know? Like, just trying to be friendly, trying to find a spot, and people just… push him away. It was so mean, but not even openly mean. Just that quiet, cold kind of mean that makes you feel even worse. And I didn't do anything. I just sat there, pretending to read my psych textbook. I should have said something, or offered him my table, even though it was small. But I just… froze. And now I keep thinking about it. Like, is that how it goes when you get old? People just kinda… avoid you? And I know it’s not a huge deal, like, people ignore each other all the time. But this felt different. It felt like he was reaching out, and they just slammed the door in his face, but with their chairs instead of a door. And I just… I don't know. It made me feel really small, and really kinda sad, and a little guilty, still. Like, what if that happens to me someday? Or my parents? It’s just been sitting with me. And I just… I needed to say it.

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