ok so I had that interview for district manager right and it was like a HUGE deal and I really want it and I was talking all this big talk about how I can like run the whole store better than anyone and listing all these things I'd change and how I'm so good at everything and then I saw Jamie and Chen and them just doing returns on the floor and they were smiling and laughing and it just hit me how I was like TRASHING them to get ahead and now I can't stop thinking about it and like am I just gonna walk all over everyone to get what I want and it kinda makes me wanna just disappear and forget about the whole thing but also I REALLY want that job and now I just feel like a total jerk and my stomach hurts and I don't even know what I'm supposed to do now.