I feel like such a fucking loser. Like, I know I shouldn’t, my store is doing fine, we’ve hit our numbers every month since I took over, which was, like, last summer? So almost a year now, I guess. Which is pretty good for being, what, 16? Everyone says I’m doing great. My district manager, even, he came in last month and said I was one of the best managers he’s seen, and he’s like, old. Really old. He probably manages like twenty stores or something, so that means something, right? But I still just feel like shit all the time. Like, I’m kinda obsessed with the other store, the one out near the highway, like maybe ten miles away. It’s a pretty small town, everyone knows everyone, so it’s not like it’s some big city chain. And I keep checking their sales numbers, like I’m not supposed to, but I do. Every night. And they’re always, like, WAY behind us. And I know, I KNOW, I shouldn’t care. Like it doesn’t affect me, it’s not my problem. But it FEELS like my problem, you know? Like, it’s because of me. Like I’m stealing their customers or something, even though I’m not, it’s just how things are. We’re in the center of town, more people walk by, it just makes sense we’d do better. But the guy who manages that store, he’s like, older than me, maybe 20? And he’s got a kid and everything, like a real adult. And I keep thinking, what if they close his store? Because of me? What if he loses his job? Like, I guess I’m just good at this one thing, right? And I feel bad for being good at it because it means someone else isn’t. And it just makes me feel like such a piece of shit. My store, we sold like 20 more of those new blasters than they did today, and I should be happy, but I’m not. I just keep thinking about him, like what’s he gonna tell his kid? I know it’s dumb. It’s so dumb. Everyone here, in our town, they all know. Everyone talks. And I know they’re talking about me, and how good my store is doing, and then they’re talking about his store, and how it’s not doing so good. And it just feels like I’m causing trouble, even though I’m just doing my job. Like, I don’t wanna see anyone fail, especially not someone I know. I just wanna like, maybe, tell them to buy stuff from his store instead? But I can’t do that, obviously. It’s just this really heavy feeling, all the time. Like I’m winning but it doesn’t feel like winning at all. It feels like I’m doing something wrong, like I’m a bad person for doing my job well, and I don't know what to do about it. It just sucks.