I feel like such a jerk typing this out, it’s not even a big deal really, like a lot of people probably have it way worse but I just needed to say it out loud even if no one reads it. My grandma babysits my little brother and sister every single weekend, like without fail. My dad just drops them off Friday after school and picks them up Sunday evening, sometimes even later if he's "busy." And she never ever complains. She always says she loves having them, and my little sister like, adores her so it’s cute, and they make cookies and stuff, but I see her. I see how tired she looks sometimes, especially by Sunday night. She used to do all these art classes and go out with her friends, like she was always doing stuff and now she just… waits for the weekend. And the messed up part is, I kinda hate it. I hate going over there on the weekends sometimes because it's just so much kid noise, and my brother is a menace, like he’s sweet but he’s ALWAYS on, and my sister just wants to play dress-up FOREVER. And I know my grandma loves it but I also know she doesn't HAVE to do it. My dad just assumes, like it’s her JOB because she’s retired and like, what else would she be doing? He said that once, I heard him on the phone, he was like "she doesn't have anything better to do" and it just made my stomach hurt. She’s not just a free babysitter, she’s like, a person. She taught for FORTY years. She earned her retirement. And the worst part is sometimes I don’t help her. I just sit on my phone in the other room, pretending to do homework or whatever, like if I just hide enough maybe she won’t ask me to do anything. And then I feel like a total piece of crap because she’s doing it all, she’s cooking and cleaning and breaking up fights and she’s older and I'm just… sitting there. I should offer to help more. I should tell my dad to stop. But I don’t. I don’t say anything. I just let it happen every single weekend. And I feel so guilty all the time, like this is a secret I have to keep from both of them. It's so stupid but it makes me feel like such a bad person.