You ever just like... feel like you're caught in the middle of everything? like your parents are getting older and you see them slipping a little bit you know? And your kids are grown but they still need stuff from you like constant stuff and it's just neverending. I had this thing happen last weekend it was so WEIRD. My dad he's like 70 now right and he used to run this BIG company like super important always knew everything. And we were all at my sister's house just a regular sunday dinner you know everyone's there kids grandkids the whole nine yards. And he's trying to give some advice about like... the economy or something. He's got this look on his face like he's about to drop some wisdom.
And nobody. nobody looks up. Like my son is just scrolling on his phone my daughter's texting someone my nieces are watching some dumb youtube video. My dad's just talking into the air basically. And he stops and you can see him like deflate. Like he just shrinks a little bit right there at the table. And it makes you feel so bad for him. Because I know what that's like you know? Like at work sometimes you're in a meeting and you have this idea and you're all geared up to say it but then someone else says it or everyone's just looking at their laptops and you just... don't. It's that feeling where you're IMPORTANT but then suddenly you're not and it's like a punch in the gut.
And the worst part is I didn't say anything either. Like I saw it happening I FELT it but I just kept eating my mashed potatoes. What am I supposed to do? Tell everyone to put their phones away? It's like a losing battle you know? And now I can't stop thinking about it. Will that be me someday? Like I'm gonna be that old person trying to tell my grandkids something really important and they're just gonna stare at their devices like I'm not even there. It's just a really crappy feeling. And I kinda feel like a bad person for not saying anything but what good would it have done really? It's like you can't win.
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