Home/Social & Belonging/Comparison spirals/ThoughtI am sitting at Table 12. It is the table for the "surplus" relatives. My cousin is 31 and just cleared mid-six figures in private equity.comparison spiralssecret family resentmentShare this thoughtCopy linkShare on XDownload imageDoes this resonate with you?Share Your OwnBrowse MoreOthers have felt this tooI’m at my cousin’s wedding. …family obligation guiltI sit at the head of the table and watch them. …social exhaustionI am sitting in the back of this reception hall watching my cousin get married and honestly I feel like a total failure.comparison spiralsSo I’m sitting here at two in the morning, staring at the ceiling and wondering if I’m just a massive brat, you know? …sibling jealousyRelated ThemesFeeling Invisible With AgeFriendship fakenessLoneliness in crowdsLosing Friends to TimeMidlife Loneliness