i don't even know if this counts as a real problem it feels so dumb to even type out but like i kinda hate my job or like not the job itself but how i have to do it my dad he always says stuff like real men work with their hands you know like digging and building and stuff he's like a big construction guy and that's what i do too i'm 24 and i work with him like he got me the job and everything and it's hard work sometimes really really hard but like i don't know it's not the part that gets me i guess it's just the thought of doing it for the rest of my life like waking up every day and just doing the same thing over and over with my hands and my back you know it feels kinda like a trap sometimes and i can't tell him that like EVER he'd probably just laugh at me or say i'm weak or something stupid like that because he really thinks it's the ONLY way to be a man so like i've been doing these night classes it's for like project management you know so you still work in construction but it's more with like plans and computers and spreadsheets and stuff not just like actual digging it's kinda cool actually like figuring out how everything fits together and making it all work right i have to like sneak around so much to go to them my dad would FREAK OUT if he knew he thinks all that office stuff is for lazy people who don't wanna get dirty or something and i just feel so much SHAME about it all the time like i'm betraying him or something even though i just want something a little different a little less...