you ever feel like you just… well you had one job right and you just… didn't do it the right way not because you wanted to you know but because it was the only way it COULD be done where I live it’s a small town everyone knows everyone and you just… you stick to the book and the book says this country's past was like a picnic you know and you teach that picnic year after year even when you know it was a lot more like a bloody mess and you just… you get older and you think about all those kids and what they learned from you and it just… it eats at you that you taught them a lie you know just a clean easy lie cause that’s what the state says and that’s what this town expects and now what