i just found an old transcript from a deposition in 2012 and i feel sick to my stomach like physically ill lol i keep reading my own words and i dont even recognize the person talking but i know it was me... i was 25 and had this shiny new suit and thought if i wasnt a total nightmare to deal with then the partners would think i was weak or something i literally called opposing counsel a "clueless hack" in front of their client during a break and i thought i was so cool for it but looking back im just this pathetic kid trying to act like a movie character the worst part is how much i ENJOYED it back then like i actually got a rush from being the biggest dick in the room i used to walk into the courthouse and treat the clerks like they were beneath me and just be completely adversarial about everything even the small stuff that didnt matter for the case at all...