I got the corner office you guys like after a DECADE of busting my ass right and it was everything I worked for you know? Like all the late nights the weekends I spent here instead of with people I actually like the stupid performance reviews where you pretend you care about some corporate mission statement I totally memorized the lingo for I played the game I won and for a minute it felt good like REALLY good I walked in that first day and the sun was just streaming through the windows and I thought YEAH this is it this is why I did it and I called my mom and she was like oh my god honey so proud and I felt it you know that little high that rush like I made it but then it was Tuesday and I was still here at 8pm the same as before just with a slightly better view of the city lights and I was staring out at all those little squares of light thinking every single one of those is someone else still working or someone watching tv or someone actually LIVING and I'm just here staring at spreadsheets feeling nothing and then last week my boss—my OLD boss now I guess—came in and was like great job on the Q3 numbers really knocked it out of the park and I just nodded and smiled and all I could think was like what for?