Achievement emptiness: You're Not the Only One

For a bunch of dead flowers? …

i feel so bad like REALLY bad and i dunno who to even tell this to like nobody gets it i got married last weekend to my boyfriend we been together like forever since college or whatever and everyone… …

Am I the only one who got married to my long-time boo yesterday, like, all fancy and stuff, and woke up today just… sad? …

The big fancy award thing. …

You spend your whole damn life doing everything by the book, working hard, saving up, so you can have that little slice of the American dream. …

but my grandpa finally finished his little wooden boat, like, THE boat, the one he's been working on FOREVER in the garage, sawdust everywhere, the whole nine yards. …

You know when you win the big thing, the brass ring, the whole damn shebang and everyone toasts *you* and then you’re just… there… eating cold risotto by yourself next to the silent range, wondering… …

For years, all I talked about, all I like, planned for, was hitting fifty countries. …

I woke up on some ridiculous pillow-top mattress in the bridal suite, sun streaming in like a spotlight on all the leftover extravagance. …

Okay so like I know this sounds REALLY dumb cause like everyone was SO happy for me and my dad even like clapped my back after dinner and said he was proud but like after everyone left I went back in… …

I finally did it – fifty countries, just like I said I would, but watching the sun drop into the Adriatic at 7:14 PM tonight, all I felt was this dull, throbbing anger. …

I saw my youngest graduate med school last week. …

I got the corner office you guys like after a DECADE of busting my ass right and it was everything I worked for you know? …

I finally got the corner office, after ten years of working like a crazy person, staying late, missing kid stuff. …

all for that corner office with the BIG windows. …

I ran a marathon today. …

I just got back from my little sister's med school graduation. …

i guess this is kinda dumb to write here but its like 2am and i cant sleep and my brain is just doing its thing we finally did it right we bought the house the big one with the backyard for the dog… …

But I just ran my personal best marathon time today. …

the bank balance. …