I just got back from my little sister's med school graduation. Like, THE youngest kid, finally done. My parents are SO hyped, my dad especially. It's like, this whole thing about "Dr. [Family Name]" for GENERATIONS, right? That's been the whole vibe since I was like, literally five. My older brother went to law school, and my other sister is like, super high up at some tech company, making bank. So it was always gonna be my youngest sister who carried on the doctor thing, everyone just KNEW it. And she totally did it, she’s so smart and works so hard, and I’m proud of her, I really am. But watching my dad, like, glowing, talking about how this was the dream, how he always pushed us to be the best, to reach for more, and how he basically LIVED for this... I don't know, it just hit me kinda hard. Cuz I'm still here, you know? Still in high school. Everyone else is off doing these BIG things and I'm just… here. My dad, he always talked about how he put his own stuff aside for us, like, that was his whole deal, being a dad and making sure we all got to where we needed to be. And now everyone IS where they need to be, except me, and he looks kinda… lost? Not in a sad way, more like, what now? Like he poured everything into us, into this family dream, and now it’s done and he doesn't know what to do with himself. And it makes me feel like, if HE doesn't even know who he is without that, then what about ME? I mean, I don't even know what I want to do. Everyone else had this path, this direction, and I just feel like I'm floating. And it's like, if my dad kinda just… disappeared into being a dad, then what am I supposed to do? What if I end up like that, but without the whole "successful kids" part? It's just too much to think about, I don't even know how to start figuring it out. And it feels SO BAD to even think this way about my dad, after everything he did, like I'm being ungrateful or something. I mean I don't even— whatever. It's just a lot, you know? The city already feels like it’s gonna swallow me whole with all the pressure and now this.