I got this little tin in my desk drawer its one of those old mint tins my mom gave it to me like years ago she used to keep her sewing needles in it now I keep my pills there I work a lot of hours you know like my boss is always asking me to stay late or come in on weekends and my parents they are getting really old my dad he got sick last year and my mom shes all like "you need to help out more" my sister she lives back home in the old country so its all on me here sometimes my back hurts so bad from sitting all day or my head just pounds and pounds from all the numbers and phone calls and the boss he yells you know not at me usually but still it makes your stomach drop and then I go home and my kids they got their own troubles my son he cant find a good job my daughter shes always fighting with her husband and I gotta listen to it all and pretend to have all the answers for them but I dont I dont have any answers for myself so one day I just took one of my dads pain pills he had a whole bottle after his surgery he never even used them all I just took one and it was like this quiet came over me like the volume got turned down on everything and I could just breathe for a minute just one minute of no shouting no demands no pain it was just quiet so now I keep a few in my mint tin just for emergencies you know when everything gets too loud or my back just screams nobody knows my husband he thinks Im just tired my mom she thinks Im just stressed they dont need to worry about this too its just a little secret just to get through the day its not like Im a bad person right I just need to make it to tomorrow thats all just make it to tomorrow