i just gotta say it i cant do this anymore i cant keep pretending i know what im doing i went into that boardroom today with my fake glasses on like i always do trying to look older trying to sound smart but i just kept hearing my own voice echo in there and it sounded so stupid i was talking about synergy and leveraging assets and a 360-degree approach and i could feel their eyes on me just burning into my skin like they knew i was faking it they knew i was just a kid playing dress up and then i get home and its like a whole other job you know like im barely out of that stupid suit and im already making dinner and checking homework and doing laundry again its just constant i dont even remember the last time i slept through the night without someone needing something i woke up this morning and my first thought wasnt even about work it was about if i had enough formula for tomorrow it just sucks all the life out of you it just does and then im supposed to just switch back into marketing exec mode and tell these millionaires about optimizing the brand narrative like i actually care i dont i dont care about any of it i just want to sleep i just want someone to take care of me for once just one day i just want to be the one who doesnt have to pretend to be strong or smart or like i have it all figured out i just want to cry without someone asking what i need from them or if im okay because im not okay i never am