i guess i just locked myself in the bathroom and cried a little or maybe a lot during my kids birthday party today it was so loud you know all the shrieking and mess and my parents are here too and their kinda old now and need stuff and i just had to like run away into the only private place in the house and just quietly sob a bit into a towel like a total baby which is SO embarrassing to even type out but like dont we all just sometimes feel like we’re supposed to be these like rock solid PARENTS but really we’re just kinda faking it and it all just gets to be too much and i dont know why i cant handle it better i used to be someone else you know before all this just a mess now and like whats wrong with me...