I have this contract sitting in my inbox for like three days now and I can’t even open the file anymore without feeling like I’m gonna puke. …

I just… I can’t sleep, and it’s two in the morning, and I’m just staring at my phone, and it’s like I’m waiting for the other shoe to drop, you know? …

I’ve been staring at that little blue folder for three months now, that dissertation file, and every time Professor Chen sends a polite little ping about my progress, a wave of pre-emptive somatic… …

i actually got offered the director role today and i'm literally paralyzed.