I just push this stroller down the same goddamn street every single day and it's like my brain just takes off without me you know— like a whole other existence happening in my head a life where I’d said screw it and gone somewhere else somewhere with that person and it just plays on repeat and I can’t stop it I CANNOT STOP IT it’s like a maladaptive daydreaming thing maybe a dissociative episode a low-level fugue state I don’t know I just wonder if I’ll ever feel like myself again or if this is it always wondering always…