I just feel like a real JERK you know, like a total sellout and I’m 48 and I should know better but my mom just had another fall and the house needs a new roof and the kids need help with college and my husband's job isn't what it used to be and I went on an interview for this corporate thing, like a big big company downtown and the money is SO much more than what I make helping people and I feel so guilty and like a total traitor to everyone I work with and it just feels WRONG but also right because I need to take care of my own family for once and it’s just so much pressure to keep up and I don't know what I'm doing ...