Home/Life Choices/Settling regret/ThoughtI shouldn't be here. I'm forty-two and I'm sleeping on a thin mattress that smells like old feet and laundry detergent in a room with seven strangers.settling regretachievement emptinesspast self embarrassmentShare this thoughtCopy linkShare on XDownload imageDoes this resonate with you?Share Your OwnBrowse MoreOthers have felt this tooAm I the only one who has ever wanted to actually set themselves on fire out of pure, unadulterated shame because their own body betrayed them in a room full of strangers? …body function embarrassmentI’m sitting on the floor of my parents' old place surrounded by dust and those heavy floral curtains that haven't been washed since 1994.past self embarrassmentI’m thirty and I work in a library surrounded by other people's stories but my own life feels like a xerox of a xerox just flat and grey and expensive as hell living in this city where I pay two… …settling regretI don't even know why I'm typing this but I can't sleep and the heater in this apartment makes the loudest clicking sound—anyway I'm 59 years old and I moved to the city six months ago because I… …identity confusionRelated ThemesAchievement emptinessChildfree guiltPath not takenPurpose searchingRetirement Identity Crisis