I think maybe I’ve made a massive fucking mistake and I don't know how to even start fixing it.

I think maybe I’m doing it again, I think I’m making that same mistake I always make.

I think I’ve made a mess of things, or maybe I’m just making it all up in my head because I’m TIRED.

or maybe the mistake was fifty years ago when i chose the lab over the easel because i thought i needed to be "practical. …