u know that feeling when u r sitting at a big table with all the fancy plates and the silver things and the room is just way too loud but also way too quiet... like u can hear the sound of the knives hitting the china and it sounds like a gunshot... sometimes u just sit there and u realize u r almost fifty years old but u still feel like u r five... u ever have that... where u r a grown man with your own kids but u r still scared of the way your dad clears his throat before he says something that is gonna make u want to crawl under the rug and just stay there forever... it is just the worst feeling in the world we were at this dinner for some reason... some family thing for someone... and he started in on the situation...