i just had the WEIRDEST moment like ten minutes ago and i’m still kinda shaking. it’s stupid, i know, but i was doing a delivery, just a regular order, like four blocks from my apartment building, literally my OWN neighborhood, been here three years. and my phone just died. completely black. okay, fine, i usually have it charging, whatever, it was like 2% but i thought i’d make it. but then i realized… i had NO idea how to get to this address. like i KNEW the street name, i knew it was near the park, but i couldn't picture the turns, not without the map telling me exactly which way to go. it just felt so alien, like i was suddenly in a completely foreign city, not literally my backyard. and then this wave of actual PANIC hit me. like real, heart-pounding panic. i had to pull over and just sit there for a minute, trying to remember if i could even get home without gps. like, obviously i could, i’ve walked these streets a million times, but in that moment i just couldn't trust myself. it’s like my brain just completely outsourced all that basic function to google maps. and i’m a student, right? i’m supposed to be like, smart, independent, figuring things out. but i was just sitting there, totally lost a block away from home, sweating like an idiot. it feels so pathetic to even type this out. idk what it means. probably nothing. but it just made me think about all the stuff i rely on technology for, all the ways i’m probably way less capable than i think i am. like what if my phone dies during finals and i can't remember my class schedule? or if i get stuck somewhere with no signal and i can't call anyone? it just feels like my brain is turning into mush sometimes from constantly being online, constantly being told what to do or where to go. it’s almost 2am and i just wanted to get it out. it’s prob just stress from exams and all the applications i need to send out. ugh. i need to go charge my phone.