You know when you like, try REALLY hard at something and it just doesn't... hit? like you bust your butt for years, do all the stuff you're supposed to do, then it's like, crickets. my kids, my TWO sons, they just... kinda forgot I exist, I guess. I’m 62 now, retired from the plant, and sometimes I think my phone's broken cause it NEVER rings. maybe it's funny, like a dark comedy? working gig stuff now, no benefits, totally unpredictable and you just... laugh so you don't cry, right? it's pathetic, I know. but you know that feeling, when you just WISH someone would call, just once, to see if you're even still alive.