i am SO confused about my own behavior lately like whats wrong with me, im 31 almost got this regional management thing and i keep... SABOTAGING myself? im picking fights with carlos, carlos who literally WENT TO BAT for me with corporate, about like... the stock levels for the 3mm machine screws. at 2:17pm yesterday for 7 minutes i just went at him. it's like an impulse thing or something, like an ego defense mechanism maybe? my dissertation is due next month and i cant focus on anything but these stupid little conflicts. what IS this. why am i doing this.