I don't know if this even counts but sometimes I feel like I'm just… faking it? Like tonight, I played this thing, this really big thing, and everyone stood up and clapped and I bowed and smiled and all I could think was "when can I go home and sleep." Not even a little bit of feeling, just the mechanics of it. Does anyone else ever feel like that, like you just went through the motions for something you were supposed to love? Or am I just… really burnt out. I think maybe I've done it wrong somehow.