I just— I don't know, I'm sitting here, it's like 2 AM and I'm supposed to be asleep because I have that big client meeting tomorrow, you know, the one for the new luxury watch line, and I just can't stop thinking about it. Like, all day today, I was staring at those spreadsheets, all the numbers and projections for how many people are gonna buy a fancy watch they absolutely don't need, and it just hit me, like, REALLY hit me. Is this it? Is this what I'm doing with my life? Selling ridiculously expensive watches to people who already have everything and I'm just… making them slightly richer, I guess? And my boss was like, "Great job, Smith, really crushing those Q3 targets," and I just smiled and nodded and went back to my cubicle but inside I was just like, a deflated balloon or something. And I remember being in college, you know, I had all these big ideas, I was gonna change the world or at least, like, DO something meaningful, and now I'm here. In this cubicle. Staring at numbers. For watches. Luxury watches. And don't get me wrong, it's a good job, I have my own apartment and I can pay my bills and I don't have to call my parents for money anymore, which is HUGE, but it just feels so… empty sometimes. Like, I go home and I scroll through Instagram and everyone's doing these amazing things and traveling or starting their own businesses and I'm just… sitting here, trying to figure out if we can upsell the diamond bezel option on the men's line. It just feels so small, like my whole existence is just about moving products. And then I start thinking about what I *could* be doing, and that's the WORST part because then I just feel guilty. Like, I volunteered at that soup kitchen once, and it felt so good, you know? Like I was actually HELPING people, even if it was just for a few hours, and then I came back to work and it was all about market share and competitor analysis and I just felt this huge disconnect. And everyone at work is so focused on the next promotion and climbing the ladder and I just feel like I'm already at the top of a ladder that's leaning against the wrong building, and nobody else seems to notice, or maybe they just don't care, or maybe they just don't have time to care because they're too busy networking. And my parents are so proud, like, "Oh, our kid is a marketing executive," and I don't want to tell them that I feel like a fraud, that I spend most of my day just trying to look busy and important while secretly wondering if this is all there is. And I know I'm young, I'm only like 21, and people say I have plenty of time to figure it out, but it feels like the path is already set, you know? Like I'm already on the conveyor belt and it's just moving me further and further into this… corporate life. And I just had to get it out because I can't talk to anyone in person about this, they'd just tell me to be grateful, and I AM, I really am, but I just… UGH. I just don't want to wake up in 20 years and realize I spent my whole life selling watches. What if I'm just… wasting it? Like, what if that's my legacy? "She sold a lot of watches." That's not… that's not what I wanted, you know?