i just got home from work and i am COMPLETELY drained like i could genuinely fall asleep standing up right now and i know it's a holiday market and it's SUPPOSED to be busy but today was just different it was absolutely insane for eight hours straight it was just customer after customer after customer asking the same exact questions about the same exact candles and then getting mad when we didn't have the limited edition cranberry spice left like did they think we just had a secret stash in the back just for them or something i swear my voice is gone from saying "happy holidays" a million times and smiling so much my face actually hurts and the worst part is my roommate keeps texting me about this party tonight like an hour ago she sent me a picture of the living room already packed with people and a bunch of red solo cups and a 'where are you' text with like five exclamation points and i just CANNOT i physically cannot go from being screamed at by a lady about a festive gnome decoration to squeezing through a bunch of drunk people in our tiny apartment it just sounds like my worst nightmare right now and i know i should probably go and be social and whatever but all i want to do is put on my giant headphones and just disappear into my bed and stare at the ceiling for a few hours without anyone asking me anything or wanting anything from me i haven't even started my paper for english lit that's due on monday and i have like three other things i need to do for my classes before i even THINK about christmas break but i just feel like if i move right now i might actually crumble into dust i just don't know how to tell her i'm not coming without sounding like a total buzzkill or making her mad i just really really need to be alone right now...