I just gotta get this out somewhere and this feels like... not a big deal but it's kinda been eating at me all day and I feel like such a SHITHEAD and like I know it's not actually a big deal like literally zero people were hurt or anything but I just keep thinking about it and my stomach gets all weird. So I work at the FoodMart on 3rd right, like after school and on weekends and it's mostly chill but sometimes people are just SO annoying like they think I'm stupid or something just cuz I'm stocking shelves but I see EVERYTHING and like sometimes I just wanna quit and go to the beach or something but my mom says I gotta contribute cuz rent is WILD right now and all my friends' parents are saying the same thing and it's just like, UGH.
But today was different and like I saw this lady, she comes in all the time, always with her little baby in one of those carriers and she used to talk to my manager sometimes and like she'd buy all this stuff but lately she just kinda... moves fast and doesn't look anyone in the eye and like my manager was telling someone in the back that the lady lost her job at the factory like a month ago and it closed down and now she's probably stressing and like I saw her today in the baby aisle and she was looking at the formula and she kinda just looked around and then she kinda like, slid a can into her big puffy coat and then another one and I was right there, like stocking the organic cereal and she looked RIGHT at me and I just kinda pretended to be really focused on the Cheerios and like I looked away and then she walked out past the registers and like I could've said something, I know I could've, like I should've said something to my manager or security or WHATEVER but I just didn't and she just walked out the door and like I didn't say ANYTHING.
And now I just feel really weird about it you know? Like I didn't do anything technically but I also didn't do anything to STOP it and like is that the same thing? And like the baby formula is SO expensive, like I saw the price tag and it was like THIRTY BUCKS for one can and like babies gotta eat obviously and like what if she was desperate and like she lost her job and all that but also it's STEALING and like my store will lose money and my manager will get mad if he finds out and like I just feel all gross and like complicit or something but also I keep thinking about her baby and like what if it was MY baby and like I just don't know what I'm supposed to feel or what I should've done and like it's just really bothering me and I just wish I could like, forget about it but I can't.
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