i’m sitting on my bed and it’s like 2am and i just need to get this out bc if i don’t i think i might actually lose it... so like my family is super traditional and we’re doing the big fast right now and everyone thinks i’m being so good and so devoted but the truth is i’m a total fraud. my mom calls me every single morning to make sure i woke up to eat before sunrise and she sounds so proud of me for keeping the tradition while i’m away at college and working this internship but she has no idea what i'm actually doing. today was just too much for me.