I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately, like, just watching it happen. It’s not really *my* thing, but it’s... someone else’s, I guess. Someone close. And it’s this whole situation where they quietly pay for stuff. Like, for clients who don’t have enough money for their pets, for surgeries and things. They just... do it. Without telling anyone. Not their business partner, not their family, definitely not me. It’s like, a secret fund they have. And it’s not small amounts of money either. I’ve seen the numbers, kind of accidentally, and it’s a lot. Enough that it could probably... well, affect their own finances, maybe. But they just keep doing it, acting like it’s all perfectly normal. It’s almost clinical, the way they manage it, like an algorithm or something. No fuss, no drama, just... expenses handled.
And it’s weird, because on one hand, it’s a really good thing, obviously. Helping animals, helping people who can’t afford it. That’s undeniably positive. But then there’s the whole secrecy part. The way it’s kept hidden, almost meticulously. It’s not even like they’re trying to hide it from *me* specifically, just from everyone else in their life. Like it’s a part of them they keep completely separate. I don’t know if it’s guilt, or if they just don’t want the discussion, or what. It just *is*. And watching it, it feels like this huge weight that’s just... there. Not on me, not directly, but I can feel the pressure of it, sort of. Like the air is thick with it sometimes.
I guess I just needed to say it, even if it’s to no one specific. Just to type it out. It’s like a quiet hum in the background of everything, this secret generosity that’s also kind of a burden. For them, I mean. Or maybe it’s not a burden at all, maybe it’s just how they operate. Like a function. But it feels like something is being... contained. All the time. And it makes me wonder what else is like that, you know? What other things are happening, just under the surface, that everyone else just kind of... doesn't see. It's a lot.
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