I know this is gonna sound super messed up but like ... my boss offered me this director thing and everyone's all "congrats!" and my parents are SO proud, but I just wanna cry. It's more money, yeah, but also way more work and I'd be traveling all the time. I just started getting good at making my own hours with my freelance stuff, and now this? I just keep thinking about my little sister's dance recitals and my brother's soccer games and like, will I even see them? Or will I just be some ghost who pays for stuff (but barely, probly) and never gets to actually hang out. It feels so BAD to even think this, like I'm a spoiled brat or something. But I'm just scared, I guess. REALLY scared.