you know that feeling when you do something objectively STUPID but your brain just… can't compute the bad part? like you take out a payday loan just to go on a group trip with friends, telling them it's a 'performance bonus' when you're literally still paying off student loans lol. it's like a cognitive dissonance thing, right—you know it's gonna bite you later, but in the moment it feels… right? or like, necessary? idk man. sometimes you just gotta keep up appearances even if it's gonna bankrupt you later. the performative aspect of it all is just exhausting.